George Town Literary Festival 2012

Georgetown, Penang is such a great place to hang out these days, what more with lots of festivals going on in this historic town. I will be playing at the Georgetown Literary Festival, the weekend of 23rd Nov 2012. Do come by if you're in Penang!


More info at:

http://www.gtlfestival.blogspot.com/

No more secrets, please

A GOVERNMENT that implements a law that puts itself to account speaks a lot more than one that spends public funds to advertise itself. Come April 28, we may finally have a law that promotes government accountability and transparency; the Selangor state government tables its final draft of the Freedom of Information (FOI) bill. It is worth noting that feedback from civil society was taken into account in its Select Committee’s amendments. We must ensure this momentum of questioning an archaic assumption whereby information held by governments are to be secret by default, but that it is the government’s obligation to ensure the public’s right to that information. The lack of information is an impetus for weak public discussions. In the case of the Klang Valley MRT, certain media or individuals made it out to be a simplistic debate of rich vs poor. The use of stereotype-based accusations must be the easiest manner in which to derail meaningful public discussions. This is further made worse by access and quality of information that is ultimately decided upon by the state. Being able to limit or control the kind of information to be released can influence public perception. Is it acceptable that the state – whom we as taxpayers fund – in turn can arbitrarily decide what we know, or don’t know? Except for narrow exceptions (for example, military secrets) the public should have every right to information held by governments, such as those concerning public transport, land deals and water concessionaire agreements. We waste a lot of time in trying to access information to make informed decisions. The Land Public Transport Commission (SPAD) has promised to consider all feedback obtained during the three-month period before proceeding with the MRT project. A transparent process and longer period for feedback would certainly enable communities to better organise themselves; a factor perhaps deemed as a hindrance if one needs to expedite a project. Despite the less than favourable conditions for communities to take part in meaningful ways, residents associations in parts of Klang Valley have come together to make a united stand and petition athttp://kvmrtwatch.blogspot.com/, calling for a responsible implementation of the MRT and outlining reasons why it should go underground. We must engage and hold decision-makers to account. Questions surrounding the appointment of American consultants in relation to the MRT project were raised by Chua Tian Chang in Parliament, who also revealed the disposal of valuable land parcels to certain companies at below market value. If we had an FOI Act in place, anyone – not just MPs – will have the right to request for such information that are of public interest. Eighty-five countries including India and neighbouring Thailand have implemented some form of FOI Act. In the United Kingdom, FOI requests were made from how their government spends on media and PR relations, to documents revealing serious safety issues in one of their atomic power stations in 2006. Man-made disasters are aided by the lack of accountability in decision making processes. Who and how was it decided that a rare earth plant was to be built in Kuantan that would generate radioactive waste? As with plans to build nuclear plants in Malaysia, there are too many questions for projects alleged to be economically advantageous but present great risks to the people. The energy, green technology and water minister saying that the "government will not do it (build nuclear plants) secretly without informing the public" does not mean a thing if decisions are made without transparent due process and genuine public consultation. While it may be a long way before an FOI law is implemented nationwide, the passing of the Selangor FOI Bill will be a historic and important step towards accessing information that rightly belongs to us.

http://www.sun2surf.com/article.cfm?id=59177 Updated: 09:34AM Fri, 25 Mar 2011

Racism - The Semantics

The following is a letter to editor (The Sun) which was not published. The writer then sent it to me. With the writer's permission, I'm reproducing the letter in its entirety here:

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I have followed KK Tan's articles on racism in The Sun (July 29, Aug 26, Sept 15, Sept 24) and despite Zalifah Azman's letter (oct 4) I can only agree with the views of Leow Mei Chern(Sept 30) that redefining terms doesnt help and may be even more damaging.

The meaning of a word depends on the way it is used by the people who speak the language - and dictionaries record and describe this in their definitions. The meaning of a word cannot be what an individual thinks the word ought to mean. Everyone has a right to one's own opinion; but if you redefine a word in your own way you are going to be linguistically incorrect, and not calling a spade a spade! The words racism and racist appear regularly in the media and as far as I can see they have been used appropriately to mean what they do in Malaysia and the rest of the english speaking world. Racism refers to dislike or unfair treatment of people based on a belief that one's own race is best, rather than K.K Tan's insistence on a 'systematic oppression of one or more races by another'.

When a section of a crowd at a football game in some European countries verbally abuses a player because he is black, this is despicable and it is racist, even though you wouldn't call it systematic oppression of a race. Hence Fifa has a campaign to kick racism out of the game. The slogan is 'kick racism', not 'kick out racial chauvinism', which has the virtue of being accurate as well as shorter and snappier.

One can readily acknowledge that some forms of racism are much, much worse than others, but racism is racism whatever the degree. Stealing a million dollars is worse than a thousand dollars, but both are theft. Poverty in Malaysia is no where as bad as other places in the world but we still talk about eradicating poverty. The difference between manslaughter and murder, however, is not one of degree. The former is unintentional killing.

There have been a couple of wilful misinterpretations here:

1. No one has denied that racism experiences by black people as slaves in America or under apatheid in South Africa was worse than racism experienced by others.

2. I don't think anyone has accused Tan of trying to excuse or downplay a problem or of pretending it doesn't exist - its just that and danger of this happening through redefinition should be avoided.

Tan is surely well intentioned (at least in his first two articles) and the sad thing is that the 'seven sins' he describes, and the proposed public declaration may deserve to be read and considered carefully, reflected upon, and discussed. But I feel that all the good work done is undermined by the redefinition issue.

Any attempt to impose or prescribe one's own definition of an accepted term can only bring confusion and obfuscation which is unhelpful for an honest and correct analysis of a social problem.

-Linguistic Observer

Celebrating Women’s Wisdom Festival

Dec 18th! Join IWP's Celebrating Women’s Wisdom Festival in Chiang Mai:

We welcome everyone to our center in a rural village surrounded by rice fields for a time of relaxation, rejuvenation, and joy.

Schedule of Events for Saturday, December 18:

2-4:30 pm simultaneous workshops including belly dance (led by Kristen Beifus), body and energy awareness (led by OmSunisa Jamwiset), Kundalini yoga (led by Faeng), and community theatre (led by Ann). Learn more about yourself, your body, a new move or two!

5:00 Women and Spirituality keynote by Dhammananda Bhikkuni, Thailand’s first female monk

6:00 delicious meal

7:00-11:00 concert under the stars, featuring:

Mei Chern, singer/songwriter from Malaysia

Fagan Shephard, singer/songwriter from the USA

dance performances, including Shan Kinneri and sword dances, belly dance, modern dance

and so much more!! A community bazaar with a wide range of local and handmade products will run throughout the event. Booths offering a tantalizing assortment of services, like foot massage, reiki, face masks and more will please your body and soul.

Delicious snacks, organic coffee, and shakes will be available for purchase, and the ticket price includes dinner.

~ guests also have the option of spending the night, in dorm or tent accommodation, and joining us for morning yoga and breakfast.

coming and going: trucks will depart from the front gate of Wat Suan Dok at 1:00 pm on the 18th and return there after the concert. For people staying the night, trucks will leave the center at 10 am on the 19th to return to the city.

pricing: ticket price includes workshops, keynote, concert and dinner, 500 baht. For guests spending the night, 800 baht. truck service to come and return to the city: 100 baht/round trip

The Celebrating Women’s Wisdom Festival is a fundraiser for IWP and a new program we are organizing in 2011 called Buddhist Education for Social Transformation. All workshop leaders and performers have generously donated their time, skills and services for the concert. We heartily thank them for their kind support and willingness to share their talents.

contact us to reserve your ticket: ginger@womenforpeaceandjustice.org (english); info@womenforpeaceandjustice or 086.944.3989 (Thai)

Ops Bilang*

Ops Bilang* was an artistic response to 12 contentious issues explored in a newly launched English-Malay e-forum called "Let's Talk About..." or "Bicara Pasal..." Organised by the Centre for Independent Journalism, Ops Bilang invited 12 artists to give a take each on those issues that are often hushed up or riddled with myths. It was held on 26 October 2010, at Annexe Gallery, Central Market Kuala Lumpur, to a capacity crowd, with not even standing room left!

An eye for an eye is one thing, but a life for another? Contemplating on the death penalty, singer-songwriter Mei Chern penned and performed this song to ask what we hope to get when we send another human being to their death. And what we really get:

Cold night, at midnight
Is this the closure we fight for?
So careful and measured
some kind of way to make it better
Is it any better?

We're ordinary people
who cannot see another
with the games they play from hell
to this calculated spite.
So caught up in the circle
with monsters that will blind you
keeping you beside
when nothing's left inside.

Cold night, at midnight
Is this the closure you fight for?
So careful, and measured
some kind of way to make things better
Are we any better?

Are we any better?

More arguments against the death penalty here: LetsTalkAbout.cijmalaysia.org

*Bilang: Malay word for "count, "to tell"; also a play on "Lalang", to commemorate that other operasi launched by the State under the draconian Internal Security Act on 27 October 1987. A total of 106 people were arrested and four news publications closed down within days, creating a long-lasting climate of fear when it comes to the exercise of our citvil liberties, especially freedom of expression. Hence, Ops Bilang is a way of reclaiming that space to speak up on issues that affect us as citizens.

Bilang 1 - hitung (satu demi satu), jumlah, congkat, campur, kira

Bilang 2 - bercakap, katakan, sampaikan, khabarkan, ceritakan, adu, beritahukan, nasihatkan

Racism, racialism or brownwashing?

IS the language used by Malaysians to reflect their aspirations being diluted in recent years? Words like unity and inclusiveness are now used like never before, but seem to mean even less. These aspirations can be diluted by co-opting the language used, or in some cases re-defining it.

A possible example is a recent article that highlighted the different forms of racism; the "systematic oppression supported by an ideology on the inferiority of the victims based solely on race" (eg those experienced by Jews and African slaves) – in which is exclusively termed "racism", and that which is "mere racial prejudice, racial chauvinism, etc to be called "racialism". It was argued that it was politically and morally incorrect to use "racism" in our Malaysian context, but that what we have is "racialism".

It was suggested that by appreciating our problem to be not as bad, then we would be able to address the issue better. But in our Malaysian context, redefining terms this way doesn’t help and may even be damaging. We do not need to reduce a problem before addressing it. Are Malaysians supposed to be less concerned because our Asian experience of racial prejudice isn’t as bad as those oppressed by the Nazis?

If the aim is to reduce divisiveness and demoralisation among people; mature dialogue, and having those in power able to manage the situation aptly and justly would help, not by diluting the message and telling people to appreciate their problems to be less than the Holocaust.

It was also suggested that by using the term racism in our Malaysian context, we belittle the terrible sufferings of those it defined as "real racism", whitewash past atrocities, and insult the historic struggles of great leaders such as Martin Luther King.

I believe Malaysians have no interest in "whitewashing" or belittling the terrible sufferings of holocaust victims or African slaves, nor to my knowledge have oppressed groups raised this concern. But by attempting to redefine racism as used by Malaysians to be "racialism" and "not so bad", isn’t that akin to "whitewashing" (or since we are Asians, shall we say "brownwashing") the racial problem in Malaysia?

If King were alive today, I’m guessing he will not be so hung up on the term, but would rather empower us to recognise the prejudice that, if encouraged and allowed its space in society, can manifest into its worst forms.

Most definitions today define "racism" and "racialism" to be the same, and some even define "racialism" to be a neutral term as an "emphasis on race or racial considerations, as in determining policy or interpreting events." Why further dilute and confuse what we mean to say? Perhaps a quote from a historian and friend sums it up well: "You do not need to gas a whole community before calling it racism."

Re-defining terms the public have been using (and that which is widely used) but authoritatively stating it as fact, is a tad insidious in diluting the message when people are speaking out against an injustice.

We can collectively and proactively address the issue, but not by immature reactionary measures, PR campaigns that gloss over issues, or by redefining terms that dilute public discussions. It would, however, help if we can acknowledge and deal with whatever prejudices there are in our society, and we can do so responsibly without making things worse when we ourselves are mindful of our own prejudices.

Published in The Sun, Wed, 29 Sep 2010

Solidarity Night : Dari Rakyat Untuk Rakyat

If you've not heard the songs on Meor's latest album 'Dari Rakyat Untuk Rakyat' (DRUR), you can listen to some of them at Amnesty's Human Rights Day at the Annex at Central Market on the 13th Dec.

I was glad to sing one of the songs on DRUR. Because there aren't many, if any, songs that embody the progressive voice of Malaysians. 'Dari Rakyat Untuk Rakyat' is such an initiative by some Malaysians, with songs written by individuals from civil society and put into song by singer-songwriter Meor. DRUR reflects real issues and expresses aspirations of a politically awakened Malaysia; from human rights lawyer Amer Hamzah's song on ISA, activist/blogger Amin Iskandar's lyrics on the Memali Massacre, Rahmat Harun's poem on Shamsiah Fakeh, lyrics by Hishamudin Rais' and notable poet PyanHabib, to Meor's 'Sampai Bila' reflecting Malaysia's longing for democracy and justice. 

I'll be singing Aapi (Awasi Api Perempuan Ini- lyrics from Rahmat Harun's poem on Shamsiah Fakeh), and perhaps a song or two of my own, at the 'Solidarity Night : Dari Rakyat Untuk Rakyat' on the 13th Dec. Details below:

Human Rights Day Celebration

13 December 2009

The Annexe Gallery, 1st Floor, 

Central Market

Kuala Lumpur 

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Prisoners in their own land

SOMETIMES, we miss the forest for the trees. Often, we fail to humanise those different from us; something that must be reflected upon after watching Prisoners of a White God which was shown at the FreedomFilmFest KL 2009. In this documentary, Czech researcher Tomáš Ryška investigates wrongdoings against the Akhas – a small mountain ethnic tribe in the Thai and Laotian mountains.

The film documents the change experienced by the Akhas over two years and their reality with forced relocation, cultural genocide and many other unjust violations by certain missionaries and developmental projects. These were dramatically captured and narrated, giving an insight into the realities faced by indigenous people and marginalised groups.

However, concerns with issues of objectivity and dramatic techniques used in this film were raised during its post-screening discussion, with some misgivings over the accuracy of its title. While it is good to be discerning and critical regarding the reliability of certain scenes in the film, perhaps the more pertinent issue to be discussed was about religious aid, or developmental projects in relation to the reality faced by people they are supposed to be helping.

Prisoners of a White God is an apt title, because it beautifully encompasses the gist of the film by also referring to the capitalistic and western development that the mainstream all aspire to. It is essentially about bigotry and how sometimes so-called good intentions can cause harm. The relevance of this film giving insight into the reality faced by indigenous or marginalised groups is so much more urgent than, say, whether the way it was filmed was too dramatic or not.

It would be unfortunate if this insight were to be understated, as public opinion is such that it is so easy to overlook the rights of indigenous peoples, and how convenient it is to accept the justification of "development" without consideration of how marginalised groups are harmed in the process. Common simplistic assumptions that indigenous groups just do not want "progress" or that they do not know what’s good for them, are still very much alive. Malaysians are no different in this indifference, and we need all the help we can to awaken our public consciousness to truly understand why some are "prisoners in their own land".

This film is also a reminder of how we ought to be careful in the charity that we do, or with making public or private entities accountable for what they preach. Planting trees, being "green", and using popular lingo like "sustainability" and "unity" not only makes good advertising under the guise of corporate social responsibility or campaigns, but also distract us from the reality of any wrongdoings that may occur; if a company publicly appropriates an environmental cause, are its business practices really green and are they committing or allowing human rights violations to occur? Entities, be it companies, politicians or governments, that appropriate and ride on popular causes for cheap publicity, while performing hypocritical or unjust acts on the other hand, are deceitful to the public and further restrict our democratic space by usurping and diluting the language used for a cause.

Prisoners of a White God is a beautiful documentary to be appreciated for its ability to engage and the honesty of its agenda, which is the well-being of the Akhas, and in doing so exposes the dangers of bigotry or the perceived infallibility of certain organisations. It is also an important reminder that perhaps we should all be more critical about our own perceptions of how things "should be" and the nature of help that we support or give others.

The writer believes that police and state resources should be used to fight crime instead of monitoring film screenings. Prisoners of a White God is found online licensed under a Creative Commons Licence.

Published Tue, 03 Nov 2009 Freespace, The Sun, http://sun2surf.com/article.cfm?id=39732

CD on tour with FreedomFilmFest09 in PG, Kuching, JB

Thanks to the FreedomFilmFest2009 KL team and volunteers for a great weekend! 

For those in Penang, Kuching, and Johor, don’t miss it and book your free passes asap. Dates and venues below: 

• 9-11 OCTOBER 2009, Han Chiang College, Penang
• 23-25 OCTOBER, Sek. Men. Chung Hua No.1, Kuching
• 30 OCTOBER-1 NOVEMBER, Tropical Inn, Johor Bharu 

More details, film synopsis, and location maps on FFF website. 

For reservations of passes, please email freedomfilmfest@komas.org or call 017-3749887, with the following information: 

Name, Contact tel. no and email, Title of film/time of session that you would like to watch, Number of passes needed, In which state (KL, PG, JB, or KUCHING)

My CD will also be on sale at the screening venues, along with Meor's new album 'Dari Rakyat Untuk Rakyat' where I sang on one of the songs written by Ramat Harun, ‘awasi API perempuan ini’. 

Don't miss it!!!

Freedom Film Fest 2009 weekend!

Freedom Film Fest is back this weekend! I may be playing a song or two on saturday if I can make it for the awards night, but am definately attending most of the films. Full listing here:

http://freedomfilmfest.komas.org/?p=700

Apart from the FFF winning films on the theme of 'real change', do watch out for 'prisoners of a white god', Burma VJ, Nia Dinata's 'at stake', Flow, Carbon connection, and a host of other excellent docos that has garnered awards from Sundance, Full Frame, etc.

Looking forward to get my yearly dose of human rights docos. See you there!

Malam Seni Rakyat & Gadoh

I should have updated this blog much earlier, but there you go. Guess I'm far from being a serial updater.

I'll be playing 2 songs tomorrow night at a gig organized by Meor and friends. It's in Kajang so do come along if you can. It's slightly experimental since I'll be singing a song written by Rahmat Harun and put into a song by Meor. Well, basically it is written in Malay so do excuse the accent if it sounds confused :)

http://cakaprakyat.blogspot.com/2009/06/malam-seni-rakyat-4-julai-2009_29.html

Have missed quite a bit of gigs lately, including urbanscape, being away travelling on the tibetian plateau. Heard it was good along with a packed screening of Gadoh. If you haven't seen it, do catch it at the next screening; it's well worth the watch for every Malaysian.

Who gets paid every time you flush your toilet?

So long as laws and a system that curtails freedom of information- or that which prevents our right to know important information that affects us- continues, any claims for change remains as just another insidious plan at shallow rebranding, and attempts to further restrict our democratic spaces by usurping and appropriating language used to express our aspirations. As such, efforts to make known crucial information that affects us is even more important. The following are important info for the state of Selangor, and Malaysians in general as it may determine how a big chunk of our tax money is being spent:  

visit www.airuntukrakyat.com which has all the relevant information and facts on the much publicised Selangor Water Restructuring Exercise.

or for a neat summary by Nat here - Water Scandal: Summarising BN’s massive conjob (or: how you are making the super rich Rozali Ismail *even* richer)

Spread the word!

FREEDOM FILM FEST 2009 & The Retrospective in London

FFF is back this year with the theme 'Real Change?' which is timely as we need to know how recent political changes affect our lives as Malaysians. It's a great chance to win RM5,000 to make a film about your/a story of change in Malaysia, or win RM2000 for an existing film (Deadline- April 15,2009). For more details about the competition, see here. You can also email freedomfilmfest@gmail.com or call 03-79685415 for more info.

I've written about FFF last year when it first screened in east Malaysia. This year, FFF will be going to London for a 'Retrospective' on the 28 March 2009 at The Garden Court Chambers, where the screening will present its films from 2004-2008 for Malaysians and friends in London. If you're in London, it's a great chance to attend the screenings and catch up on the different issues which have been raised by Malaysian activists over the years.

FFF London is made possible and organized entirely by Malaysian volunteers and friends in London. For more details or if you’re interest to be a volunteer, please visit
http://freedomfilmfestlondon.blogspot.com
or email komaslondon@gmail.com

Hope sinks in limbo land

WHILE some are busy debating morality, our constitution and ethics over recent fiascos, a section of Malaysians know very well how political changes can directly impact their lives in what could be very real and lasting manner.

Watching a video interview of some Perak-ians recently, I saw the immense disappointment in their eyes as they spoke of the political turmoil in the state.

"Macam orang gantung pada langit", a man described how they have never felt Malaysian for the past 51 years; the orang asli in Perak have been denied their rights to their land and a chance to live as equals ever since Malaysia gained independence.

In finding an urban parallel, I imagined a foreigner telling me that I have to leave my home because it belongs to them according to "their" new set of laws. Then the house they claimed from me is sold or used for immense profit. In the meantime, these powerful people decide to do "good" by running a programme and hire me to work in the house for RM400 a year. Anyone in their right mind would revolt at the injustice. But such is the situation of a marginalised community with little access to recourse or opportunities. They live at the sidelines, without a voice, and pushed around as and when someone else with the power and money want the land they have been living and toiling on.

Imagine their sense of hope, when what had not been achieved in 51 years, was done in a short span of 10 months since the last general election. Systems were put in place to assure their voices were heard by the state, and the process of ensuring their right to their ancestral lands were started; they showed that when given a chance, they could work hard to exercise their rights, to live as equals, and hope for the future. (For more info, see:
http://thenutgraph.com/orang-asli-in-perak-apprehensive).

But the recent fiasco in Perak has left them worried – with mixed emotions of quiet anger and hatred – at those responsible for the political turmoil that could mean a permanent end to whatever progress made since March last year.

One wonders if some middle-class Malaysians whose emotions run high because they feel like "2nd class citizens" have spared a thought for the orang asli, and perhaps include them in their demands for justice? One wonders also if those who thump their chest in anger because they feel besieged or "challenged" by those who questioned the manner of Perak’s takeover, have considered the orang asli community whose lives may be relegated back to how their rights have been trampled on for 51 years?

Land-grabbing is happening right under our noses, under the glare of our media, preoccupied with sensationalising private lives of politicians. Aside from stunting the progress of civil society, such gutter journalism supports the malicious intent of those bent on discrediting one of the few politicians who makes a firm stand based on just values.

Threats against politicians like Elizabeth Wong are a threat to her country at large which will continue to inherit the kind of processes that put profit above lives, should her kind of work not continue. We don’t need politicians who allow landslides to happen, only to appear at the next tragedy site when people die to donate money and shed some tears for the press. We don’t need state policies that continue to marginalise certain communities, and then do so-called charitable work from fat profits off the land taken from the very people whose rights were denied.

We surely don’t need politicians – no matter how articulate – to opine or justify their hypocritical actions, along with tabloids disguised as newspapers, for these irritatingly distracts us from the reality on the ground that speaks for itself.

(published 02 Mar 2009 http://sun2surf.com/article.cfm?id=30588)

Question The Brand

Finally, I found something else to wear for my performances besides my signature white shirt!

My friend Jo created his own brand of t-shirts - 'Question the brand'; it fits well, and I felt really comfortable wearing it on stage!

It's also a great alternative christmas gift ;)
(only 80 in circulation)

Check it out at http://questionblogs.blogspot.com/

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Tourism Malaysia 2008 commercial

I recently did the vocals for this commercial made as part of the Tourism Malaysia 2008 Campaign for South/West Asia. It's quite different from the previous Malaysia Truly Asia ads; this one has a touching story to it.

Writings

• Album
• FREEDOM FILM FEST
• Michigan Womyn's Music Festival
• Posters, CDs, and the Michigan Womyn's Music Festi...

Published writings:

• Racism, racialism, or brownwashing?
• Prisoners in their own land
• Hope sinks in limbo land
  
• I found my home
• We're all swimming to the other side
• At what cost, justice?
• Aliens have landed! What now?
• THE BIGGER PICTURE
• Times are a-changing…
• On being Ornamental, Passive, or a Pacifist
• Funny reactions
• At the sidelines of Independence
• Damned if you do, damned if you don't?
• The purpose of education
• Want changes? Do something!
• A convenient deception
• Beauty of rituals
• It wasn't me
• Who will air your dirty laundry?
• In Chinatown, everyone is Bruce Lee
• Hope we're not a lost cause too
• Build, not burn bridges
• Love petai, love Malaysia?
• On being an exotic squatter

Upcoming Shows

25 Oct 2008, 20:30 08:30 PM - Jaya One
31 Oct 2008, 20:30 08:30 PM - Jaya One

Doppelganger - tbc

Suaram's Human Rights Concert - tbc

Lyrics

1. Good intentions

2. Sleeping
3. Sunny Days

4. Beautiful Minds

5. My Time

6. Do you see me like you

7. Feels Like Falling

Feels Like Falling

I fall asleep at night
Thinking you’d be there tomorrow
And I’ll Kiss you
Like I kissed you for the first time
When I awake I’ll find you
Waiting by my driveway
Smiling, and singing
Songs that make me cry now

So tell, tell me
Do u mean what u say
Cuz I’m tired, I’m tired
of the games we play
Baby baby
Do u know If this means
Goodbye

Here we go again
And it feels like falling
And I’m wondering where I stand
Before you go again
I’m gonna say it loud
I don’t need you now

With your life as such
Sometimes u don’t even know
How the snow
Can make me smile so much
Then you turn around and say
That it would be okay
But your empty words
Mean nothing to me, nothing to me now